Ever since January, my involvement in theatrical productions has been producing (The Last Days of Judas Iscariot, Wax Wings Productions - March 2012), and upcoming choreographer/fight choreographer (Cruel Botany, Imaginary Beasts – June 2012). While I am so proud of the WWP inaugural production, and having a blast with the IB ensemble, I have to admit, I miss acting.
The “theoretical break” I used for the title of this post alludes to this: I am currently and have been since January holding several production team roles so it’s not a break, but I have not been cast in a play since then. Please don’t get me wrong, I am happy and grateful and enjoying the production roles I have, but I am most looking forward to being a part of a cast again. I was completely exhausted (in the most wonderful way) this winter, and as a result auditioned less frequently. To be completely honest, after about three weeks of not scheduling more than two auditions, I was done with my break. But, I have not been cast in anything that I have been able to say “yes” to. Not ever to say that I begrudge this fact (because who’s to blame but myself?), I am just aching to get my hands on a role!
This “theoretical break” has been good for me for two reasons: 1. (Most importantly), it refreshed me, and inspired me to work harder on my career. I have been more excited and worked harder on auditions, and I am reading more scripts, seeing more theatre and planning future endeavors with my company mates. 2. Not going to lie, this break is helping me stay sane while planning for our summer wedding. I appreciate it because it makes me more driven and determined to better myself as an actor. I have been observing more, and carving out the techniques that are becoming signature to my acting style. Being outside of a cast creates the hunger for more roles, which I acutely feel now. Every audition is another chance to act, regardless if I am cast. I relish it! I’ve even been planning my goals in acting for the next couple of years, and am starting to see where I’d like to be professionally.
All this being said, I have some auditions coming up that I am very much looking forward to. And WWP will be beginning a new journey into theatre that my company mates and I are extremely positive about. A break in acting, although tough is one that I’ve come to accept. I know I will sometimes be superbly busy and sometimes, well, there will be dry spells. Being there and living there for now is making me focus on what I want, and appreciate all the work I have been lucky enough to do. It makes me look toward the future bright-eyed with renewed vigor and hope. I can’t wait for the next opportunity to act!
